Do people normally go through this? is your life at an end?

Maybe im just a pessimistic person, but i'd like to know if this situation is normal. I was born in a very religious muslim family, we were taught that God sees everything you do, and you must follow exact rules to get into heaven. Keep in mind that my mother is an american convert. My brother d me when i was somewhere between 5 and 9. I told my parents and they told me to forget about and pretend it didnt happen. Well that didnt work to well, i cried myself to sleep for 7 years praying for God to forgive me. Under the muslim rule, it is wrong for women to show skin, thus i was forced to wear the hijab when i entered high school. I was also told i could not leave the house except under parental supervision, i couldnt listen to music, watch people kiss on t.v., or even speak with boys. If i failed to follow these rules i was severly whipped until i bled, or had large bruises typically lasting for weeks. Oh and bathing suit at the age of 5 was also a sin.